AlexaCam (alexacam) wrote,
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You Were Talking Like the End of the World

These periods of adjustment are rapidly bombarding my senses more frequently at a speed, that at times, becomes just too much to bear. I am not happy and the state of content is just turning my life into a system of routines with no motivation to escape. I have confined myself into a box with no key hole to peer out of let alone a key to set myself free. RENEW THYSELF....but how? I feel like all the pieces are in place but I just cannot figure out how these parts function as a whole....completeness is what I am striving for but am starting to feel as though I am meant for an abstract world of disillusioned visions and settling for what comes close to my desires.

Have to stop living this carbon-copy. Kinda ironic how the more I feel as though I am on track of what I want, the more fear and insecurity hold me back. Must break this cycle before permanence sets in and what I could of done settles in as lost hope. Have to change my roles in life as a member of a family, a friend, and as a part of this society. Have to take these thoughts off myself, it is driving me to insanity. This distraught ness is taking me away from what gives me strength or more appropriately....happiness. Need efficiency and not just answers that never get applied.

NEED NEED NEED
HAVE HAVE HAVE
MUST MUST MUST

MY MY MY
ME ME ME
WHY WHY WHY

CRY CRY CRY

You are turning into nothing more but a over-opinionated, selfish, controlling bitch that will suffer in your own misery that you created and not the happiness that is all around you. Please put me right side in by turning me inside out.
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